Isn’t she excited?

“Isn’t she excited?  Isn’t there ANY excitement at all?” Let me say this.  No.  No, I am not excited.  I am hopeful AND absolutely terrified.  I am not excited because I am no longer blissful nor naive. I no longer have that pleasure. I would give anything to have that feeling back. I live in … More Isn’t she excited?

Don’t wait.

I have been thinking a lot about permanence or really the lack of permanence. Impermanence. I guess it’s something I have never really thought about. Or never really had a reason to. But now it is so real.  Nothing we have is permanent. Nothing is here to stay, ever. Nothing. You lose your job. You … More Don’t wait.

The Cabin

Just days after Simon died, it started.  “You should go to the cabin.” “When will you go to the cabin?” “Why don’t you just go to the cabin.” “Have you gone to the cabin yet?” Like “the cabin” was some miracle healer after the death of a child.  Here is what the cabin is for … More The Cabin

worry

How will I ever love another child as much as I love Nolan? Will Nolan and the baby get along? Will it be a boy or a girl? What if we don’t pick the right name?What if they don’t like their name? Do we have everything that we need? Will the baby be a terrible … More worry

“Love Fiercely”

What does support through grief look like to you? No one has really asked.  But if they did, this is what I would say. Just. Show. Up.   It’s that simple.   Show. Up. BE THERE.  Be there when the world crumbles.  Be there when the clouds drift away for a bit. Be there for … More “Love Fiercely”